Trigger Alert: I was 17 when I tried to commit suicide. My relationship with my father was horrible. Things were miserable at my high school for me also. I tried to end my life by cutting my wrists with a safety razor. However, I only scratched them up and didn’t do any real damage (because.. safety razor). It was a cry for help and no one heard me. I remember wearing long sleeves in gym class when it was hot so I could cover my bandages. I was happy that nothing worse happened, but scared that I would feel that way again.
While that was my only brush with suicide, I was depressed over the years and it finally got worse in 1999, when I was 28. I was able to function at work, but I would just fall apart at home. Everything had lost its joy. There was an episode that finally got me to do something about my depression. I had been walking on the streets of NYC with my younger brother and he was alarmed at something I did (I hung up a receiver on a pay phone that was hanging — couldn’t help myself) and the way I was talking. He convinced me it was time to see a psychologist and to think about helping myself. I saw a psychologist who helped me and I also went on depression medication under the care of a doctor. It was the right decision for me and made all the difference. I still watch myself to make sure I am okay. And I watch for it in my kids, even though they are ages 10, 8, and 5.
Did you know that mental illnesses, such as depression, eating disorders, schizophrenia, and ADD, affect millions of people worldwide? I’m partnering with Bring Change to Mind (BC2M), a nonprofit organization built to start the conversation about mental health. Co-founded by Glenn Close, they are hoping to amplify its mission by bringing this discussion about mental illness online to build the awareness, understanding, and empathy necessary to inspire action to end stigma and discrimination. It’s a message that I feel is worthwhile.
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Learning about the experiences of others can help reduce the stigma associated with mental illness and give those who are suffering the courage to seek help.
To end the stigma and discrimination surrounding mental illness through widely distributed Public Education Materials based on the latest scientific insights and measured for effectiveness. To act as a portal to a broad coalition of organizations that provide service, screening, information, support and treatment of mental illness.
Bring Change 2 Mind is a national anti-stigma campaign aimed at removing misconceptions about mental illness. The idea was born out of a partnership between Glenn Close and Fountain House, where Glenn volunteered in order to learn more about mental illness, which both her sister, Jessie Close, and nephew, Calen Pick, live with.
KRISTINE AYALA says
Thank you for sharing your story!
Suicide is always serious but unfortunately those around us that we are closest to don’t always take it serious. I had a series of events happen in my life and my closest friend told me that he couldn’t be bothered by me. People need to know they are loved and that there are people who care no matter what one feels inside.
Thank you for sharing your story. It is so important for all of us to know we are not alone with our dark side. <3
The Mama Maven says
Thank you, Katja.
NYC Single Mom says
This is one of those hard to read and discuss topics so I appreciate your honesty. Like most people I have sad days but I know it’s no way near what people who are depressed feel and definitely those who have thoughts of suicide.Over the years, I have gone into therapy just to have an objective bystander to talk to in sad times and in less than happy times. I am so happy that you sought help, it makes such a difference.
The Mama Maven says
Thank you, NYC Single Mom. It mage a huge difference in my life. I want to make sure others get help before it’s too late.